So today started with a bang.
Or in the language of reframing, it started with many interesting activities, says Priya with a sigh, an eye-roll and a sarcastic laugh. Pssst... I still like "bang".
I didn't get a chance to catch up and journal this morning so here I am, catching up this evening as I start preparing for a beautiful Cape Town sunset and also take stock of what this day was. I find it funny that I always say Wednesday is my favourite day - it's all downhill from there! But today felt like a bit too much. I have this habit of stacking things I need to do or get done in one day or morning so I have free days in between. I'm trying to change this all-or-nothing behaviour because it feels overwhelming. Yes, we achieve so much; but at what cost? And who are we comparing these achievements to and for?
So right now, as I end my day of many things done and some great work completed, I'm left tired and a little uncertain. Whenever I check things off a list, I know it's a dopamine hit, but if my relationship with dopamine is unhealthy. I'm always chasing a hit, that's when the feeling becomes addictive and elusive. So instead of chasing the feeling, I will pay attention and stay present of my feelings and wait before I act. I will consider my bandwidth before I book my day. I will take pleasure in my achievements and remind myself of them when I feel lacking.
A lot of food for thought. So how do I move on from the heaviness of trying to resolve the feelings? I focus on gratitude and remind myself of my focus and path with affirmations.
I am grateful that my fridge was replaced as easily as it was.
I am grateful that I have the abundance to live the quality of life I have.
I am grateful that I could nap when I was tired today.
I show myself compassion in all situations.
I trust myself and my intuition. It connects me to my truth and my higher power.
Day 3, you were many things, but you were also, rewarding.
